What's wrong with me?

When I was in 7th grade, I saw a cow being butchered on an online video. The video triggered an influx of disgust for meat for me. Soon after, I became a strict vegetarian. Back then, I was considered tall for my age being a 12 year old with a height of 5,4. In the span of 3 years, I've only gained 2 inches. I think I have reached my max height at 15 which is only 5,7. Consequently, I'm among the shortest in my cl and I HATE it because a lack of protein during my growth spurt stunted me. I ******** hate all cows. These days, I sometimes get weird moments of blood lust where I imagine myself tearing apart and feeding on raw cow meat. I get so angry thinking about my height, knowing fully well that I'm not the height what my genes gave me. Do you think I need therapy to get rid of this height-complex?